謝謝你的溫柔，謝謝你的好。

謝謝你的溫柔，謝謝你的好。

對不起我害你傷心，害你哭，害你的情緒好亂。

一直回來打擾你。

謝謝你給過我的一切，你的好，你的耐心，體貼，溫柔，我都會好好記在心裡的。

給個一年吧，看我們會在那裡，要是有緣的話，一年之後的我們有可能會再度相會吧。

我終於懂的放手了，雖然很痛，但我懂得了。可能時間會讓我們忘記以前的我們吧。

忘記了，就能重新開始嗎？

還是那時的我們已經太晚了？

因為我知道現在的我們已經太晚了。

生命很短，你教我的，別活在過去，應該要珍惜現在的每一切。

誰知道明天會有什麼事情發生。指望我們未來有緣吧。再見了。

你是怎麼弄丟了曾深愛的她的...

你是怎麼弄丟了曾深愛的她的

剛到手的時候疼人家到骨子裡去，每天給她打十幾個電話，發幾十條信息，她說什麼你都銘記在心，想吃什麼、想買什麼、想去哪裡你都會盡全力去滿足，溫柔體貼無微不至，巴不得二十四個小時都能跟她呆在一起；一開始總是包容的，就算她的生活習慣與你不同也會努力的調試配合，一切一切都是美好的……

　　久了，膩了！每天別說幾十個電話，就連1個電話都懶得打，打電話時只說具體情況，把那些覺得無關要緊的“情趣”話都省了；信息就更不用說了，她發10條你回有一半你就覺得你回的已經夠多了，就連她打電話給你你都覺得她啰嗦！

　　你不會再為她想吃早點而早早起床，你不會再為她排隊買她想要東西，你不會專門請假帶她去她想去的地方，你會覺得她什麼事都依賴著你，讓你覺得她麻煩事特多！

　　接著你會發現她的缺點越來越多，她的優點快被她的缺點掩蓋，你快忍無可忍！最後，厭了！瀟灑的用“分手吧！”一句簡單的言語結束了復雜的感情；或耗著等著，直到有一天她受不了忽冷忽熱或若即若離的態度自己選擇離開，你還可以說是她自己離你而去，你沒有負心……

　　男人，你記不記得你曾經說過：“我永遠都會對你這麼好，一輩子都這樣愛著你寵著你！”
　　不是她麻煩事特多，是你一開始就說得做得太到位，才會讓她依賴上你！你記不記得你曾經說過：“不管多晚，睡不著都可以打電話給我，我的手機24小時都為你開機！”
　　那你又嫌她不體貼，白天工作的時候打電話打擾到你，辛苦了一天晚上要睡覺了她還纏著你不肯掛線。是誰讓她養成何時何地想打電話給你就打電話給你的習慣？

　　她無理取鬧。
　　那是因為從某一個時間段你的態度變了，你開始冷落她了；讓她覺得沒了安全感，由使她起疑心！不是她不信任你，不給你空間，而是她愛你，在乎你，用盡所有時間去關心你，你的生活細微改變都牽扯著她的情緒！

　　她脾氣不好。
　　那是因為她有很多時候知道了很多事情，但你不說，她都選擇沉默，在一直沉默；積壓到一定的時間她們就會爆發心中的所有怨氣；要知道，這一些都不是她脾氣不好，是你不夠細心發覺，她們是一直積壓下來的！

　　她不再跟以前一樣動人。
　　當初是誰說不喜歡她每天變化多端像只花蝴蝶，是誰說喜歡她素顏的清純模樣？雖說喜新厭舊是人性，除了毛主席跟古董以外，什麼東西看久了都會審美疲勞；但她不是東西，她是個活生生有著感情的人！

　　你不再給她答案，不再給她承諾，不希望你以後做不到讓這些答案跟承諾變成謊言！
　　那你以前又給她那麼多答案，給她那麼多承諾，現在為自己鋪好後路可以前承諾過的叫她怎麼忘記？女人不怕諾言沒實現，怕的是你承諾了又不去實現，最後實不實現是另一個問題！

　　你忙，你沒時間沒精力討好她，你不知道她現在在想什麼？
　　那你以前不忙嗎？你以前是不是就把全部時間用來討好她而不用工作？那你以前怎麼都那麼細心觀察她在想什麼？

　　你覺得你們不配，你不想她再浪費感情在這段沒結果的愛情上。那你一開始追她干嘛？做實驗啊？她都已經浪費這麼多感情了，你當感情是水龍頭啊，說開就開說關就關！對，這一切都是你給自己找的借口！別以為換個女朋友就可以永遠擺脫那種感情暗淡時期，因為不久的將來你還是得回到這種時光，下個女朋友也是，下下個女朋友也是，下下下個女朋友也是，有種你一輩子不談戀愛不結婚……

　　男人們，看完了回想一下你們的那段美好時光，趁現在沒有人偷偷想想是不是你們給自己找借口了？那個以前深愛的女人現在就那麼不值得你愛了麼？別說你瞎了狗眼以前才會跟她在一起，因為你沒瞎，也請不要侮辱到狗！後悔分手的趕快努力從新追回來，以後用心經營著共有的感情！其實女人要的很簡單，只想要一個愛自己男人就夠了……想要分手的考慮清楚，並不是每段感情都可以挽回的！考慮太久也不行，因為她們可以忍耐你冷落她一段時間，但不會一輩子傻下去；她們再怎麼傻，也會給自己一個時間段，去忍受你的冷落，去相信你的愛；但時間一到，她們會毫不猶豫的離開，到那時再多的甜言蜜語都沒有用了，因為這世界上沒有誰離開誰就活不了！

　　戀愛中的，好好珍惜現在那個願意照顧你，體諒你，願意陪你承擔風雨的傻女人吧！過了這個村，或許就沒這個店了……

　　到時間結婚的就結婚吧，不要再拖拖拉拉婆婆媽媽；結婚證一領就像買了保險，至少心裡都有底了……

　　愛情，就像煮粥！滾燙的時候加點配料它就是夠火候又有滋有味的；等到忘記關火煮焦了的時候，你聞都不想聞它甚至你連鍋都想把它扔了……

　　看好你的火吧。
　　我只能說……我看了痛哭啊……


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is love real?

i look at dramas,
i look at couples,
i look at fictionals,
i look at the mirror,
i look at you and me,
are we really like them?
are we really in love?
are we really meant to be?

if we are,
why isnt my heart racing for you?
why aren't my face blushing for you?
why arent I excited to a point I would jump around?
why cant I always smile when I see your face?
why do I cry sometimes because of you?

so many whys, so little answers.

so if we were really meant to be,
then why are you questioning our relationship?
why are you asking things like if I'm afraid of losing you to someone better one day?
if you really trust our love why will you be worried?
if i were really going to run off with someone else,
I would have done it long time ago,
I wouldnt have waited till now to do things,
I wouldnt have stayed with you through all the storms.
I would have given up and ran off.

So through all these trouble,
why cant you see,
that I am here for you,
no matter for rich or for poorer,
for sickness or health.

Appearantly your insecure is still there,
apperantly my love for you isnt enough,
maybe its just me.
maybe i just think too much.
i wish sometimes you would have more faith in me,
just sometimes.

Confused and lost in denial..

Sometimes we tend to be in denial really often,
thinking that we can undo what was done,
thinking that maybe things would turn and change,
thinking that life can still be the same.

What we dont know was,
that these werent the reality,
just something you desire,
somemthing you wished for and craved for,
something you like to convience yourself its true.

Where's that real part of me?
Where is the part of me that is expressing the real feeling?
Why can't I feel any of those.
Why am I so confused standing here,
by myself.

Do I deserve this?
Do I even deserve love?
Please can someone please tell me what to do?
Can someone please?

Money status.

I look around, and found myself where I started,
the around looks so strange to me,
maybe its because I am not used to this.
The people I thought I knew before
the places I thought I been before,
they're all gone,
shattered,
and disappeared .

I thought that she, among everyone else knew me the best,
but then maybe, family, not by purely just dont do.
When its not pure, jealousy will be in the way,
thus cause the inner war, that was never to be set.

Was it wrong to stick with what I have believed in?
Was in wrong to think that maybe, just maybe money value is more different?
Maybe some people are right,
money do change people,
money to control people.
when you have a lot of money,
when you're wealthy,
the little you give, counts a lot, and thus makes you the kindest.
when you have a little money,
and you give as much as you can,
or maybe, sometimes just that thought,
people may think you're greedy,
and just turn aside and talk behind your back.
Money status,
money status,
in the year 2012 and beyond,
it may be everything.




What is money status?

College Fresh Journal 1

     College, such a strange term, higher education they say, but to me things are worst in college than in high school. In all the classes, I tend to felt left out, everyone there have so many friends, and even in class, meanwhile I on the other hand always seem like the one who is left out, the one who doesnt belong in the group. I often ask myself, what is the cause? Is it my fault? Am I just not socially fit to be around?
      Everytime when me and my group of friends I met in college hang out, eventually as we walk together, the group will start forming two by twos, and then I will be the extra thrid, or the lonely one, but rarely the two by twos. Sometimes I get jealous, and sometimes I am just simply confused, why arent I able to be in groups with them? Then some sudden realization hit me, I am just not cut for it.
      But when today, missing a test in college japanese class, I got two text from two different friends, asking for my where abouts, and telling me, reminding me that there's a test today. I suddenly felt so warm inside, so happy. It's those unexpected thoughts that makes up for your terrible day. All of a sudden, I felt my importance.

Thank you Nat, Josh. Forever grateful to have you guys around me.

Promises

GOD DAMN IT BLOGGER. LOST MY THREE PARAGRAPH BLOG. I HATE MOBILE VERSION NOW DAMN IT!

Promises, what are promises? What are promises suppose to be? A joke? A thing to forget almost instantly? If you were to promise someone something then why would you forget it? Shouldn't you care enough to remember what is it and achieve it? Shouldn't you put it into priority before everything else that aren't a promise?
Promise is such a down fall in humanity. People trust them, and then they fall. People who doesn't trust then will end up alone. So what can we possibly do? If people would be more trustworthy then this world may be better off.
But then again, what is promises? A pinky? A thumb? A thought? Or a heart? how much efforts are you willing to put into a promise? By putting effort it doesn't just mean achieve it and maintain it but to actually remember it forever. Even though they promise things and we as the people they promise to should remind them but then shouldn't they remember it better than us? Not because their the ones doing it but because their the ones who promised it prior to us who didn't.
And then there's the other thing, denying. Denying is the worst among the worst of all promises. "Hey. You promised me this this this..." Next thing you know they smirk and go "don't be stupid, I never did such thing" yeah you may regret ever believing in them but honestly what can you do? Nothing. You can just sigh there and question yourself on why you do that. Sometimes I wish that things like this wouldn't happen. Sometimes I wish a promise can last. Last and happen.

Until next time.